The Red Blouse

She came out of nowhere it seemed—but isn’t that how it always is?

ghosttree-197x300One minute David and I were driving along talking about miso soup and the benefits of organic farming, or maybe pondering some philosophical question like, “Is it easier to change direction—or to simply forget where one has been?”

The next thing we knew we were upside down on the grass on the opposite side of the road.

A woman had run a stop sign with her beater Ford Galaxy and had plowed right into us.  Her car hit our right rear wheel so hard that it pushed the car all the way to the curb on the opposite side of the road.  The impact with the curb flipped the car upside down.

The Toyota Corolla wagon’s roof was pretty much crushed flat on the dashboard and steering wheel, leaving the only route of exit out through the popped out rear window.  David, being a little claustrophobic, wanted no part of hanging out in the upside down car and neither did I.  We made our way out of the car crawling between the seats and through the broken glass on the roof of the car.  Ducking under the top of the back seat, I whacked my knee on the dome light.  The smell of dripping gas, tire rubber and spilled coffee was in the air.

The Far Side of the Attic

I hate it when there are so frigging many screws in the attic access cover!

WhidbeyhouseAll six screws were three inches long, with mangled slots from previous people dealing with the cover.  Some appeared to have been “given up on” which only made me all the more determined.  I placed my screw driver at an angle on the groove of one of the screws and then whacked the screw driver to knock the paint out of the groove to help the screw driver fit better.  I turned the screws out just far enough to get my vise-grips on the heads and then turned the screws the rest of the way out with the vice-grips.

With the cover finally out of the way—with only minimal damage to the where the cover had been painted in place 20 times—I was able to peer into the opening.  Waving the flashlight, I wound up enough cobwebs to make a place for my head to look around.  The air smelled the way old attics smell—an odd concoction of dust, wood, rodents and insects—marinated by time and extreme temperatures.  The dust and cobwebs covered an assortment of items—perhaps left by the first occupants of the home.  Other items that I could see were more mid-20th Century—but nothing seemed newer than that.  I was obviously the first person to wrestle with those old screws in a very long time.

The Northwest Light–a short dream

sunsetthroughthetreesSometimes things become etched in one’s mind like petroglyphs.  The edges smooth out a bit over the years but the basic shapes remain.  As a boy, I traveled to the Northwest and only one “petroglyph” remained from that visit.  Of course there were the lesser petroglyphs of the Space Needle, the flying fish at Pike Market and the Conservatory on Capitol Hill, but everyone remembers those things.  It was the “Northwest light” that remained the most deeply etched in my mind.

Reflections

It is easy to feel separate from the things around us—from other people–from the whole world.  It takes a lot of work and courage to see how interconnected everything is.  There is even a worldwide movement that reflectingsees the earth as a superorganism where humans are but a part of the whole organism–some might argue that our involvement is more like a cancer by the way we act at times.

The total degree to just how interconnected we all are may be outside the grasp of the mind’s current state of evolution.  Add to that the various pressures to deny interconnectedness and some people can live their whole lives in desperation.

Every day science informs us as to how one thing impacts another in some way we never realized.  It is not a new concept; we have known a long time about the consequences of how pissing upstream becomes someone’s drinking water downstream.

When we look in a mirror it is pretty easy to see ourselves reflected in something else–the mirror.  It is also true that a door reflects our image–we just can’t see it–perhaps a shadow, if the light is just right.  The door nonetheless sees us.  While these are most likely only metaphors of connectedness, we truly are made up of the elements of the earth and these elements do end up back there–they never left actually.

For some reason we don’t like to think of ourselves being interconnected because we might be required to see ourselves becoming food for something else–as we return to dust.

For me I would find it more disappointing to discover that we aren’t somehow all interconnected–however much we might act that way at times.

Charles Buell

Drinking the Kool-Aid!

All of our parents fed us Kool-Aid

Our grandparents fed our parents Kool-Aid

koolaidOur great grandparents fed our grandparents Kool-Aid.

 

All of us will feed our children Kool-Aid.

Our children will feed their children Kool-Aid

Our children’s children will be feed their children Kool-Aid.

 

Even before they knew what to call it, parents have given their kids Kool-Aid.

Eventually they named it, “Kool-Aid”

The packaging has changed over the years

It comes in all kinds of flavors

It comes in a rainbow of colors

It can even be disguised as Jell-O

And Popsicles.

 

Some parents are careful how much sugar they add

Some parents think too much sugar is OK

All the same, it is still Kool-Aid.

Everybody thinks that their particular flavor is the best.

Some people change flavors and colors.

Everybody loves their Kool-Aid.

By Charles Buell